I almost forgot that I have a blog...

So, it has literally been forever since I posted any thing on here. I apologize for that if there is anyone out there that actually reads my blogs. hahaha.

So this has been a whirlwind last few months. I have been having some health problems and it has taken the doctors a while to figure out what was going on. After further investigation, they have found two nodules on my thyroid. I am going on Monday to have them biopsied to find out if they are or are not cancer. Everyone keeps asking me how I feel about it and I really don't have an answer. I mean, it is what it is right? It's not like me having a problem with it will change anything! So, now we wait and see. The doctor told me that I should have my results by Wed. I am thankful that I will hopefully know something before Christmas instead of having to wait it out until after the holidays.

I will try to write more later. Just wanted to let everyone know what was going on.

This is something I am holding onto right now.

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

-Kan

29 Years and holding...

So, Thursday, May 28th was my 29th birthday. I was a little down, but my husband and family really made it a great birthday for me. Here is what we did...

Thursday morning Dad took me and Steven to breakfast at Crackerbarrel. As usual, it was really yummy. Then Steven and I went to get our hair cut. I got my hair chopped off and went back to blonde. (You will see all of this in my birthday pictures below.) I love my new hair. It made me feel really good about the way I looked for my birthday dinner. So after Steven and I got our hair cut, he took me shopping for summer clothes. We had a lot of fun picking out clothes together. He was so sweet. Plus, we ended up getting just about everything on sale, AND they gave us 20% off of everything because it was my birthday and because we had one of their cards. Whoohoo!! So after the shopping, I came home and got ready for the evening out with the fam. We went downtown to Nashville and had a drink at Sambuca and then we met everyone at the resturaunt. It was this new gourmet mexican food place called Casa Loredo. I think that was the name of it. I know it had Loredo in it. hahaha. It was REALLY good. We ate and drank and had yummy cake. My brother picked out the cake they got for me. It was a farm cake with little farm animals on it. I knew when I saw it that Matt had picked it out. haha. Well, opening cards and presents is my favorite. :-) Mom, Jos, Matt and Mark gave me a spa day! I was so excited. I can't wait to use it. Cindy (Steven's mom) gave me a pair of white gold ear rings. They are very pretty. The big surprise for me was Steven and Dad's present. They schemed together. Steven sat a Jared's box in front of me. I asked him if he was proposing again. haha. He said no. I opened it up....and....it was a piece of COAL! He had been teasing me telling me he was giving me coal for my birthday because I kept asking him what he was getting me. He said he would get me coal and then in a hundred thousand years or so I would have another diamond. Smarty Pants. So then I look down and there is another Jared box. I open it up....and...it is a shotgun shell!!!! I knew right then that they had gotten me a shotgun!! I was so excited (as you will see from the pictures). Steven gave me my first Rifle last year before we went deer hunting and now I have my own shotgun. I am so excited!! Call me a nerd if you will, but I don't think he and dad could have pleased me more! So, here are the pictures from my special birthday.

Me and Dad at Sambuca

Surprise! Spa Day!

Reading Cards

Dad and Jos

Me greeting Bubbalicious

Steven and Dad got me a shotgun!!!

Woohoo!

Testing it out...

Mer made me do it....haha

Tagged by Mer

8 Things

Here are the rules for "eight things": Mention the person that tagged you. Complete the list of eight things. Tag eight of your wonderful blogger friends.

Eight things I look forward to:
1. Steven getting home from work every day.
2. having a family
3. deer season (yeah, I'm a dork I know)
4. Building our own house
5. seeing my friends in July
6. meeting Madalyn
7. our 1st year anniversary
8. going back to school

Eight things I did yesterday:
1. rode roller coasters
2. ate theme park junk food
3. kissed my hubby
4. sat in stand still traffic on the interstate for an hour
5. played with Chappy
6. read a book
7. talked to Dad
8. Talked to Mom

Eight things i wish i could do:
1. lose weight and get in shape
2. get pregnant
3. paint
4. slow down time
5. travel more
6. find a job
7. see my closest friends more often
8. make new close friends here in TN

Eight shows i watch:
1. NCIS
2. Law and Order SVU
3. Reruns of Friends
4. Bizarre Foods
5. UFC Cage Fighting
6. History Channel
7. Discovery Channel
8. Food TV

Absense makes the heart grow fonder....

So, I feel like a big baby for even posting this, but I guess I am a big baby. haha.

I am leaving tomorrow to go with my dad to PA. My Papa is having a pacemaker put in and I want to be there for my dad. Steven is staying here to run my dad's business for him while we are gone. I am SO not looking forward to being away from Steven. This is our first time to be apart basically since we started dating. He is not only my husband, but he is my best friend. I LOVE spending every day of my life with him. I know that it is good for us to be apart. To spend time apart. But I still have that feeling in the pit of my stomach...that part of me that knows I will miss him so much. I know it sounds so stupid. Most people would probably tell me to grow up and get over it. Grown ups spend time away from their partner all the time. But, that still does not change how much I hate it. haha.

Anyway...I'm done complaining.

Pray for my Papa, that he comes through the surgery and that he recovers quickly. Pray that this pacemaker gives him a better quality of life. Pray for my dad while he goes through this with my Papa. Thanks in advance for the prayers.

Warm fuzzies.....

This is a picture from honeymoon island in Fiji.












I ran across this old poem that I wrote a couple of years ago. I thought it was fitting for this time of year. Enjoy......

Childlike Life by Kandace McWaters


Childlike love of Spring and Summer
Breezes of Spring
reminders of constant change
Flowers bloom
an example of hope for new things
Sun shining on my skin
begging me to live in this moment
Rainy days
enjoying the little things
dancing in the rain
the smell in the air after a long day of showers
Rainbows after a storm
a cause for hope
Playing outside
making mud pies and castles
A longing to remain childlike
but to grow up at the same time
Spring collides with Summer
Warm days at the beach
The sand between your toes
walking along the shoreline
seeing endless possibilities
Not knowing where the sky ends and our world begins
The beauty in the little things
a randomly unique sea shell buried for only you to find
Baseball games and sand volleyball
hot dogs and root beer floats
Laughing
The joy of bringing a smile to another's face
No walls, no boundaries
No insecurities or fears
Not yet knowing the meaning of failure
Trust in it's purest form
Loving without reservation, prejudice or condition
This can still be found somewhere in all of us
There is no question
To be innocent and pure
To love life and love others
All of this a reflection of God's intentions
Let's enjoy the little things again

My first blog...

I finally decided to break down and start blogging about the things that are going on with me and the hubby. It's sad to say, but these blogs are actually a really good way that I keep up to date with what is going on with a lot of people that I know. So, here I am.

Steven and I are doing great. We are absolutely loving being married. I never knew that I could love someone so much. Every day I really do love him more.

We are both still looking for jobs. Please pray that we find something soon. It is just so hard to find a job right now. I have even looked at the retail places here in the Boro and have had no luck.

We had originally planned on being moved to Kentucky (to the farm) by now, but the job situation and the money situation have made us re-think our decision. So, we are going to stay around here for now and look at moving to the farm sometime in the near future.

We were at the farm yesterday planting our garden. This sucker is huge. We are going to have enough vegetables to feed a small country. We planted 12 of the 16 rows. We will plant the rest in the next couple of weeks. It was so much fun though. I actually drove the tractor and disked the soil up. After we got the ground ready, Steven and I sewed everything by hand. It took us all day to get all of it done. I swear I felt like I had just been in a fight with a large woman named Helga by the time we got finished. It made me feel good though, to know that Steven and I did it and we will literally be able to see the fruits (or vegetables) of our labor.

Ok, I think I have written enough for my first blog. I think I could get used to this though. :-) I will try to write more again soon.